Sadly the feeling of stress and everything that went along with it got packed in the cases and didn't go missing with the pram (we did get the pram back, thank god!). In fact, once we got home the stress seemed to get bigger and bigger, especially as the Bean went two days in a row WITH NO DAYTIME NAP. Yeah, that really helped my mood, and it just got worse until at the weekend I snapped. TBM asked me how I was and it all came pouring out, the resentment, the tiredness and worst of all, the feeling of doing it on my own with little support, which isn't the case but hey, who was being rational?
Anyhoo, a good long chat while we got the shopping took a huge load of me and has helped me put the horrible holiday in the past and start to move forward. Isn't it strange how simply talking about stuff makes it better? More manageable, less of the monster in the closet? I wish we had done it sooner, but we had no space or time during the holiday and the weekend was really the first chance we had to get it out in the open.
I'm giving all of us a clean slate and hoping things get a little easier, that the Bean will start to sleep in his proper routine and TBM gives me the ocassional break at the weekends. ME time will be enjoyed with zero guilt or explanations required.
The plan is to sign up at with the gym's creche and the Bean can go in there once or twice a week so I can get a swim or spin class in and hang on to my sanity. I also want to find a couple of activities we can do outside of the house, today we trialed a playgroup, but I feel the Bean is a little young for it so we might give it a whirl again in a couple of months. There is a thing at our local library that might be up our street so will try that out next week and see how he enjoys it.
I feel like a balance may be within my sights.
Have you had a holiday that didn't meet your expectations? How do you get your balance or do you just keep going and hope for the best?