I was wondering what to do about this, obviously not trying too much, I’m apathetic after all, when it dawned on me. I was stuck. In a great big rut. Or maybe a maze as I had a feeling there was a way out somewhere, I just couldn't find it.
If it was only one thing I think I would know what to do, but there are two or three big things that are taking up a bit of my attention right now with no idea of where to begin.
I talked to a few friends about it and had a bit of a breakthrough with one thing today. I’ve been home sick and also sick of my home, but at the moment can do nothing about it. Moving back to Scotland is not a good plan just now with the economy being as it is and moving in Sydney is a nightmare. So I have to accept where I am at the moment and stop letting it draw my attention when I can’t do anything about it. Problem not quite solved but at least I can accept where I am and move on, mentally speaking.
Encouraged by this breakthrough I decided to take things into my own hands with some health problems. I have a doctor who keeps an eye on things, but I wanted more so booked in to get acupuncture. I have been told it’s very good, but never being a pin cushion before I’ll have to wait and see.
The last issue is getting off my ass and working on my business. I have a feeling now that I have managed to get unstuck with these other two things that will happen on its own once the apathy diminishes. My friend John is a song writer and one of his lyrics is Apathy = inaction, well inaction = apathy in my case so maybe I’ll overcome it now I have moved along on my path.